At church lately it seems like the subject has centered around God-sized dreams. A God-sized dream is basically a dream you have that only God could accomplish. Otherwise, it would be impossible. A dream that God has given you to accomplish for His Kingdom. If God was not a part of it, it would never happen. I think God gives each of us specific dreams and talents. We have these thoughts and deep desires that God plants in our hearts. Not sinful desires that come from our flesh, but good desires for God’s Kingdom.
But what if I don’t have one? I tried and tried to think about what dreams I have in my heart. I sat there and prayed and asked God to show me. But nothing came to mind. No big dreams for my life. No huge career goals. Nothing really big. So what happens then?
I think paying off our student loans was our God-sized dream. I think getting married to my amazing husband was my big dream. But I did get married. And we are about to finish paying off our loans. In just 4 short years, we took out our 10 year loans. So what happens next? What is the next big, God-sized dream?
Honestly, I have no idea. I’m following Jesus and trying my hardest to obey Him. I am doing my best to be obedient in the little things. I think sometimes that’s all He asks of us in certain seasons of life. When it feels like I don’t have major dreams where I need God to pull through, I just rest in knowing that He is still God and I am not. He is probably working behind the scenes right now. Working to show me the dream He has in mind. And you know what? That’s okay. All I want is to follow Jesus. All I want is to be obedient to whatever He has for me.
That can be scary sometimes. God could ask us to do ANYTHING! But for some reason I have so much peace in trusting God with my future. I used to have a ton of anxiety over what God would have me do with my life. But I have been learning so much about His character lately.
This verse has helped me grow so much: Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.”
So until I know what His plan is, I will wait and obey, and I will trust Him. I will be still, and in my heart, I will know that He is God and I am not.